Why the rethinking? Three big things, relating to the name of this blog:
- Identifying myself as a fat chick in lycra felt like a persona, not myself. It was a mask, and I am tired of wearing masks.
- The name seemed to feel constraining in terms of what I want to write about. I have an interest in HAES, but that is not everything I want to put in words.
- Most importantly, after spending more time reading the fatosphere and reading the very real discrimination many people have encountered, it felt presumptuous to call myself "fat." Out of respect for others who are fighting significant battles, I do not want to imply my experience is the equivalent of theirs. If I can be an ally, I will.
Why Bindweed or Bluegrass? I am a transplant to the West and at times I feel like I found home when I got here and at others I wonder what on earth I'm doing here. Many people plant Kentucky bluegrass in their lawns out here, even though it requires and inordinate amount of watering and babying in this climate. I wrote a poem years ago wondering if I was just another patch of bluegrass or whether I could learn to thrive here. The jury's still out. We shall see.